aubree is here.

and i’m very excited about that! we went to this little kid egg hunt thing. and we gave little kid tattoos, and saw this giant sully from monster’s inc, and we got cookies with m&m’s in them, and we just danced in the rain, and it’s just been fun. we are going to paint eggs for easter, then eat something, then shower and get ready, then going to the movies with our dates! to see the last song! :D  my sexyy date is my loverboyy derek, and aubree’s loveelyy date is brandon. hmm, okay i’m off to eat some mac and cheese :) mhm. muuuccchho love, <3

my schedule:

alright so here’s how today goes.

going to leave grandma’s in like, five minutes.

then going home and getting ready.

then going to lansing to see kelly, vinnie, and mariah for mariah’s fourth birthday!

then coming home later, getting ready, and going to whitney’s.

then me, whit, and ken are going to an egg hunt at island park!

today should be funn, i’m quite excited :)

TGIF! :D

okay, so i was gunna type another long story but i had to finish my history homework and now i don’t have as much time. well, i copied off of adam because i didn’t do mine for homework like i was supposed to. but, i don’t know if adam was a good idea but he is actually kindof good in history, he always answers questions and stuff. wellll, me and toren are talking again. we’re not like totally back together. but i think that we’re gunna get back into the way things used to be. i’m sure if that’s a good thing or a bad thing, but i’m just letting things be. soo, i’m going skating tonight for jill’s birthday. me and whit are going together then i’m going to her house after to spendd the night. saturday i think i have pageant dress rehersal? i don’t even know, i haven’t heard from my aunt in forever. soo, i’m hoping that this weekend won’t be stressful. and i’m hoping i can memorize my words for the pageant. i also hope that me and jay’s talent show auditions go okay.  ugh, i’m so stressed right now. i need to learn how to relaxxx.

hahaha, derick was playing this dog racing game and he couldn’t figure out how to make the dog run and his dog came in last place and he looked like he was running in slow motion. now he’s playing this dirtbike game and i’m laughing soooo harddd.

ahahahaa, it’s going to be a good day :)

i get pizza in second hour and i don’t have to do any math!

             mucchhhhho lovee, <3

let me tell you a story…

okay, once upon a time there was a beautiful princess. this princess was born in the hot summer months and was give the name, raelyn. as she grew up, she fell in love with this handsome prince, loren. he was very good looking and was a prince. he seemed to be perfect for her. but, then it turned bad, it hit a rocky point and they broke up. he went off to find love with a peasant, talissa. and she went off to find love with a boy her parents did not approve of, berek. he was very good looking also but he was a rebel and he had a horse! which meant he was old enough to ride one which meant he was too old for the princess. every night her parents told her to go back to the lovely prince. but, what could she do? he had moved on. but, her and berek hit a rough patch too and she ended things with him. at this point, she hadn’t talked to loren in over four years.

it was a year since the berek brake-up and the lovely raelyn was walking through the farmers market when a couple of peaches fell out of her basket. as she leaned down to grab them, a much larger hand than hers got there first. she stopped, looked up, and there he was. the beautiful loren. it had been five years since they had even seen each other. when they looked into each others eyes, they fell in love all over again. it was beautiful, it was magical. they went off to get a cup of cow’s milk and talked. they talked about how everything had when wrong with their other loves and that they missed each other. they talked about how they liked the other people but everyday they thought about each other more and more. loren said he was almost to a breaking point.

so, i would like to say that loren and raelyn lived happily ever after. but, that’s not how this story goes. two months later, raelyn discovered that loren had cheated on her. he kissed a peasant girl by the name of hantelica. she was nasty and went around with all the guys. raelyn cried her eyes out, her heart had been broken. she was lost, and she was confused. she didn’t know what to do. she wondered if what they had was ever even real. she wondered if loren really ever loved her. she wondered why he would want to hurt her. now, she’s stuck. she loves him so much but she wonders if he feels the same. she wants to forgive and forget and just move on, but that was a terrible thing that he did. she doesn’t know what to do and she needs help.      do you have any advise for the lovely princess raeyln?

just getting through.

last night, i think i hit rock bottom? it just seems like everything is going wrong and i really can’t handle it anymore. no one even cares so i’m not going into detail. just letting you know how i’m doing.

anyhooo, me and derek have been talking again. right when i almost couldn’t take it anymore, he made me laugh. thank you to him for saving me. again!  he was talking about my butt and how it’s bouncy. ahahahhaha. yeah, it was great.

soo, here are my weekend plans:

• friday: skating, then spending the night at whitney’s.
• saturday: whitney’s, then unsure.
• sunday: grandma’s for breakfast, then pageant.

yepp, it’s not gunna be ahhmazingg but it will definetly be a great time. i’m super nervous to sing in the maple syrup fest pageant… i hope i do alright? /:

well, the teacher is about to block my whole computer, hah. i gotta go. mucccchhho lovee, <3

happy st. patty’s dayy.

well, hello there. it is st. patty’s day and i hope your wearing green! because if your nott, imma pinchh youu :)  hah. well, let me tell you alittle bit about the day i had yesterday. okay, you don’t need to know about school because it absolutely sucked. but, then aubree rode my bike and i rollerbladedd, that was fun. then she had to leave so i went over and got the little girls that i babysit and i pulled them in a wagon. then derek starkkss was rollerblading and he met up with me. we went to the bp park and when the girls were playing, we just talked about life and he played volleyball with me. it was nice, to get out of the house and be in the really nice weather. and derek really made my day better. he’s not gunna read this but thank you. i definetly want to do that again. kayy, bells gunna ring soon. gotta go. mucccchho lovee, <3

olddd poemm.

let’s go up to the slide, so we can be alone.

let’s stay here all day, i don’t wanna go home.

the park is our spot, i would swing with you forver.

hold me in your arms, i love it when we’re together.

let’s watch the sun go down, it’s getting kindof cold.

pull me in closer, together we will grow old.

you are like a cigarette, i’m addicted to you.

i need to see you all the time, our love is just so true.

together our life will be great, as the years go by.

i want to be with you forever, everyday until i die.

<333

just a little update.

welll, it is tuesday and i feel like some majjoorrr crraappp. i started my period yesterday and it just kindof sucks. like, sure periods suck anyways but just the fact that your on it puts me in like, a depression. hah, whateverr, i’m sure nobody even knows what i’m talking about.  anyyhooo. i’m unsure about what is going on between me and toren. oh well, i don’t really even know what to think about it. andd, me and jasmine. we haven’t spoken in succh a long time. that’s not my problem though really. because if she doesn’t wanna be my friend and doesn’t wanna talk to me, why would i want to be friends with her. right? well, that’s how i feel about it anyway. and what really sucks is that she doesn’t realize it but this is really hurting aubree. she’s like making aubree choose between me and her and she’s just caught in the middle. and the dumbest thing? this isn’t even a fight. it’s all her just being stubborn. oh well, life goes on i gueesss. umm, there’s other things going on but i don’t really want to talk about religion on here so idon’tknow. i don’t wanna say anything. but god is changing me, fersure. i asked him into my heart and yeah, last night was indescribable. soo, yeeeaaahh. as far as liking boys. i like one. well, i love one. but, i think that our chances are ruined. yepp, i’m pretty sure if we ever tryed to be something again, it would just be weird i think? because i will never forget what he did. mhm. me and aubree have spring break plans. imma teach her how to rollerblaaddeee:)  hah. alright, latteerrrrrr. muchhho lovee, <3